Tuesday, March 17, 2009

ATTENTION, please.

I most definitely, have got to figure out this problem.

I'm not attention prone, or anything but I tend to want attention from certain guys.
It's like when I want it, I have to have it, and If I don't get it, then I get mean.

It's almost like I need something more than just [something], at all.
if that makes any sense ?

I'm having trouble understanding that just God alone is enough, I feel like I'm seeking for something, and I don't quite know what it is. Not saying God can't provide for my every need, but almost as if, I need more than that, or more than Him alone.
That's tough for me to say, cause I love God, with all my heart, and feeling like he's not enough hurts.

I think that my dad not being around when I was younger, I longed for that being loved feeling from a "man" and because of that, I've grown up longing for attention from guys, especially if I like them. So, its hard for me not to like anyone and just be satisfied with being single and knowing that God loves me and likes me. It's like I need something more in front of my face, realistic to say.

I don't know, man. I'm hoping eventually this will go away, I'm thinking it takes some discipline and confidence to get pass the whole I need a guys attention to feel OK about myself.

Lesson learned today is that: Seeking the wrong attention, gets you no where.
God's love alone is enough to last a lifetime and more. No one else can love you more than Him.
Be satisfied with life and His love for you, don't go looking for attention in the wrong places, go to God with everything, he'll give you His full attention.

[love], Alana.


  1. You are so inspirational, even in your vulnerabilities. . . that's so awesome. My mom's reached that point, but it's taken her a loooong time to get there. We won't know HE alone is enough until we start lacking something, and each time it's an opportunity to try I guess :) I'm so loving your blog.

  2. Wow, you have no idea how great that made me feel.